To think about is monday again tml. i can't help but to feel pressure.
I know is kinda foolish to think about why do i need to feel about this when i got the chance to go into good school.
But yeah, being in such a class where by everyone is socialable among one another. 
And that feeling rejected by classmate because i know u know i have some age gap btw us. 
4 years age gap might not seem to be a big deal but the thinking of 4years younger and older are definitely diff.
Despite is only one year , i feel like is a 10 years journey. upon knowing how much our class is so bonded.
I feel like i been lacking of this socialable imagine. maybe i look hard to approach? 
I know is partially my thinking that is affecting me, i am being conservative towards them becoz of i 
believe with age differences, we will not have much common interest, neither they will catch my jokes.
like the common topic i can find from some ppl is KPOP, but kpop is nt everythin though. hmm
I dono. but i am feeling mixture of feeling about upcoming projects and presentation. 
maybe i shouldn't think too much, things might not goes that bad as i think. T.T

i need to do this no matt, for comin 3 years. for the cert, for mum. T.t

Yeah, I turned 21st officially now, being an official adult. wow, I am not sure what to feel.
had a wonderful celebration on the 15th with seconday mates and Ite mates ♥
my precious chingu who took time to come over despite being busy with their personal works,
and yeah, i appreciate it alot. Thanks lots ppl. 
Of coz, to create a event, i must have sponsors. And here the credits goes to my sis and mum.
Helped me to plan everything, decorate the house with jing and hock. Basically, i just watch aside.T.t
To be honest, i really don have a creative mindset, Almost tot of just leaving the house plain as it is.
grateful to mum, jing and hock hao who put in efforts in decorating for me. 
And yeah my Birthday cake which was supposed to be a surprise to me was ruined accientally.
But still, i got surprise still. Infact, i only see the front but not the sides. HAHAs ♥

  

My first ever Surprise Birthday Cake I've ♥ FT ISLAND ROCKS YEAH ♥


 My Precious Pals yeah ♥
 
Thank You to u guys! Despite not able to spend enough time to entertain u guys.
U guys still did ur best to play hard. LOL

And of coz I love her and I thanks her sincerely

I may not be able to express my thanks sincerely to her because we always quarrel. 
But i know she did alot for me. Planning, decorating, buying a expensive gift and also
cooked the sort called "birthday noodles" for me today. I know she loves me, So do I ♥

I Spent a awesome day with all of them. thanks god. I have wonderful people around me.♥

Orientation for TP enrollment these two days was pretty interesting. 
19th and 20th. Yeah, pretty awkward ytd, it was like the first time we met? lols
hmm, we intro countless time, played some games and so onnn . 
can't helped to feel that there is some kind of age gap since everyone know i am the oldest and from ite.
Maybe it is just an imagination of mine, i don't know. But i pretty much sure they are out-going ppls.
And the fact that they are being friendly towards me, I appreciate it. 
Today orientation was even more fun, yeah, they sang me a b'day song in class. 
eh, totally awkward for me, kind of retarded look of me maybe? lols 
And i am totally in the mood of cheering becoz of all the SLs as well as classmates,
they are so freaking awesome in cheering which kind of motivate me as well. 
They sang B'day song again during break to complete with another class, okay, is dam weird. LOL
But everyone was having fun so am I. Went to bedok reservoir to cheer for Dragon boat competition. 
ah, tiring totally.My voice just scream non stop. And Business gt Championship again,just like last yr!♥
CONGRATS TP ♥
oh yeah, surprisingly , a performance of wakeboarding during the break was done by caley.
that friend who i met during my nitec attachment? LOL. He is a awesome man, wakeboarder!

I gona have a short weekend, and the first week will officially starts.
Frankly speaking, i not too sure abt how it will goes. I am pretty worry about it.
whos not anyway, we got major projects going on, and exams... what we need most is collaboration. 
Teamwork, hoping to find group members are definitely one pb. 
It seem like the kids are forming groups themselves as it goes and i am still stuck here, worrying.lol
I don really hold high expections, but maybe, a smooth yr perhaps? ♥ God bless yo ♥

these 3 years are goin to be tougher than i can imagine i bet. 
i am already having a shaken heart now that i do not have confidence to pull it through. 
I know i need to pull this through. I just hope and pray i will. For myself as well as mum. t.T

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR THE WISHES U GAVE. I APPRECIATE IT ♥
i was really hoping i would get a starcall from pabo FT , well. LOL 

p.s Happy Birthday to Bro LuHan who turned 22th this yr! ♥

and yes, guys, i am done with all the updates for now and i am leaving. 
STAY TUNE for the next update. (ok, i don even know if anyone look at it)  HAHA ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF ♥
FIGHTING♥

I don't know, i don understand. T.t 
I dono how much relationships can hurts ppl to , but i know if they wan to move on, they can. 
First thing to do is stop the emo-stuffs. 

I really tried to be a honest person, but just sometimes, i don think i can do that.
that devil overtake the angel whenever i see those things. 
I know right, i am soo  zzzzzzzzzzzz. 

well, that nothin much i can do too. T.t